the problem with me is that i am barred by law from careers i am interested in, and i capable of doing, because of the fact is that i have exceeded the age limit because of losing years to mental illness.

Now the only jobs legally permissible to me are those which i am incapable of doing, and in places i am incapable of living. ( they involve sales, which i am simply incapable of-- I have aspergers like symptoms )

What will the doctor do about it ? He can't change the laws.

they have barred me from doing what i want to do ( and what i am capable of doing ) . Instead, they are forcing me to do what i am incapble of doing, in a place i am incapable of living.

They have made my life useless , yet they want me to live. what for ?
and they would arrest me if i try to kill myself.

they have barred from doing the jobs i am suitable for -research, journalism, teaching. Because i crossed the age limit due to losing some years to mental illness. no concessions in age limit for those with history of mental illness. ( the indian govt. has always pretended that mentally ill people simply don't exist --there is no benefit programme for mentally ill people, even on paper )

they want me to do jobs involving sales . I am simply unfit for them. I do not even know how to talk to people properly ( I have Aspergers like traits ) . How will i ever do jobs in sales ? whats more, those jobs would be in horrible locations without even the most basic of amenities -- as many as 10-15 hours of power outages in a single day ( typical third world conditions )

some jobs in the IT sector don't bar me because of my age . ( although i would have to do courses to get those jobs ) . but amidst the current global crisis, these jobs have become extremely unstable. and in any case, the outsourcing industry has to close down one day, sooner or later. What will i do then ? ( there are age limits for most jobs in India )

The indian govt's laws have made me useless. Yet they won't allow me even to commit suicide. they would arrest me if they find me trying to kill myself.

Some pictures from the financial capital of the world's second fastest growing major economy.

How religion is forced upon the society using coercive methods.

Readers might have noticed how religious people force their beliefs upon the society ? They play religious "music " so loud that even a deaf person can hear, they build temples illegally everywhere, including public places like parks and even government offices.
Religious parents force their children to become religious ( they tell their small children lot about religious delusions at an age when they are incapable of mentally distinguishing between reality and imagination ). Furthermore, becoming a slave of religion is almost a prerequisite for leading a " normal " social life. Young atheists like me find it very difficult, often impossible to find a life partner. Religion has BRAINWASHED humanity so much , that a non-brainwashed person finds it difficult to socialise.
Morover, religious people constantly keep advertising and proclaiming their religious delusions and nonsense , even if the other person is not interested in knowing. ( loudspeakers outside temples are one way for the marketing of religion, wearing holy thread on your wrist is another ) Religion tempts small children into its delusional beliefs by offering them sweets ( prasad ). Religious people keep asking whether the other person is observing rituals , fasts and other nonsensical practices of religion.
And trust me, whenever i have told people that i am an atheist, people have poked fun on me and/or tried to propagate their delusional beliefs to me, and often looked upon me as if i were a creature from a different planet ( you see, belief in a flying monkey or a virgin mother are a necessity for being an earthling )

Religious people not only actively propagate, but also force religion upon the society using illegal means. Take a stroll in any indian city and you would find illegally built temples at every corner.
One of the best blackmailing techniques religion uses to tame and " purify " atheists is weddings. Vast majority of marriages in india are caste based, and the weddings involve elaborate religious rituals, and even the dates are decided by an astrologer. This situation forces many young atheists to give up their principles and become a slave of religion , just like the majority of the public.

one prominent reason why religion continues to flourish in this modern age is the " herd behavior " of human beings. People consider belief in a flying monkey or a virgin mother as " normal " and even respectable since everyone else in society believes in such concepts and hold them in high regard. People generally don't have individualistic thinking, they derive a significant portion of their thinking and beliefs from the society's thinking and beliefs. If the overwhelming majority of the society consider religion not only to be true but also to be true, then individuals also develop such thinking and beliefs.
It has been my observation that though both men and women are vulnerable to this " herd behavior " , women by nature are more " agreeable " and " fashionable " ,and more likely to blindly follow a belief since " everyone else believes in it " . Women, by nature, place a lot of importance on winning others' approval and affection. They do not oppose the absurd and sometimes plain evil practices of religion, as they might lose social approval if they do so. Some men, on the other hand , like to question and criticise society's irrational beliefs- they feel less compelled to do and believe what everyone else does and believes, less compelled to win social approval .
[ it is a well documented fact in personality psychology that women tend to be more " agreeable " ]